Question:
I just found the blisters this morning , went to the doctor and he said its genetalis herpes ... he gave me Zelitrex 500mg 2 a day for five days. I have never had this before , i know who i got it from and i am very angry with this person for not telling me , when i call to talk about the phone is just hung up...

I am indeed a sad man , i also got chlamidia from this one night stand .. so i was very unlucky , i have spent several days at home now because of severe pain when urinating, influenza symptoms, my ass and legs even hurt, i have a fever too...

I really dont want to live any more i lost the will to do so. I have no one to talk to about this.

I fell that my life is over now because i will have herpes for the rest of my life. What will i tell my future partners ... ? ooohh this is a true nightmare for me, i cant deal with it , i feel lost and alone and dirty...

I also have a problem with my stomach acid wich gives me a sore throat and this is getting worse because i worry so much now , also worry and stress is not good when you have herpes i have read.

How will i ever be able to live with this. This morning when i saw the blisters for the first time i knew right away what it was , but i looked it up on google and saw pictures , yes i have it ... i cried alot , and felt very sad, i took a ride in my car and felt like nothing mattered anymore... the sun was out but my mind made a shadow view of the nice sceanery.

I have been fighting to get out of a depression and suicidal tendensees.... i fought and i won , i got two jobs now and things where going so well for me , i dont know how i managed to fight but i did , and now i get slapped in the face with this, its so not part of my plan , i feel like its all been for nothing now.

I had a massive marihuana absuse but i stopped that too , i stopped it just like taht one day to the next and have not smoked any since... i got a new education , i got a job and then a second job , i started to feel happy for the first time in a really long time , and now this ! its just too much for me to handle on my own ....

Now i feel like crying again .... im sorry to be writing all this but i need to get it out ... i cant do this alone , i feel so sad inside....

-SADMAN- :cry:

Answer:
Sadman...your story is unfortunately familiar. I felt very much the same way when I found out I have herpes. I was living in a foreign country with limited resources, away from my close family and friends. I felt I had no one to turn to. Needing someone to talk to, I turned to my friends here, who I had only known for a few months, and they were amazingly supportive. This site is also a great support. There is hope, Sadman. It's one year later, and I feel pretty good about myself. I still have bad days, but the good far outnumber the bad. I focussed on self-improvement (I go to the gym five days a week, I write in my journal constantly, I read more, I go out and dance more, and I drink less) which really got me through my depression. Don't lose hope, you're not alone.

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Hello , its back and im back.

As you can see its been away very long, i was sure i did not really have it and had almost forgot all about it.

Then one day about a week ago i got this tingle feeling the day after the first small blisters appear.

I went to the doctor that same day to get some meds, i was given the same meds as the first outbreak and same dose.

Im now on the fourth day og the treatment, its gone away abit already but its startet to hurt alot now, the blisters are gone but it really hurts alot now, i cant really remember so please can someone tell if this is normal.

I just read my first post again, and i startet crying when i got to the last parts.

I am really sad now, i have questions like did i really have it the first time or did i really get it this time , is it normal that there can be so long between outbreaks ?

I am truly the sadman again, please respond it will mean alot to me , you are the only people in the world i share this with.

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All is not lost sadman. I don't have herpes myself my girlfriend does and we have been dating and having sex for a few weeks now. Love can find anyone even with herpes. As far as how you got it alot of people don't even realize they have it. You will feel better after your first year of having it the symptoms become less and less over time.

There are alot of vitamin's you can take to help yourself too and supressive meds help with passing it to others as well as condoms.

If you need anything feel free to post all of us are here to help :p

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Thank you very much for the reply, any reply really helps alot.

Please look at the date of my first post it was may 2006 !!!

Now nearly one and a half years later i post again.

I would like it if someone could please be kind enough to answer my questions in the previous post.

You will have to excuse the writing as im from denmark.

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I first want to say hopefully it will always be 1.5 years in between your OBs! Many people on this board experience them much more frequently. Is it unusual? Given the fact that most people don't even know they have HSV it is probably not that unusual to go that long or even much longer between OBs.
I'm very glad to see you are hanging in there after your first post was so sad. Also glad you were able to move on and put HSV to the back of your mind in that period of time. It is to be expected that you will experience repeat of emotions that you had initially during a recurrence.
Take care of yourself....

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Sadman,

I just found this website today and couldn't decide whether to join but then I read your post and it touched my heart. I'm so sorry for your grief but I can tell you that after having this for 25 years, it does get better. I am amazed at the wonderful people who post on this site; they express real care and concern for fellow suffers.

As to your question about length of time between outbreaks, I can go for a year or more and then have a couple back to back. I believe it just depends on my stress level, whether I'm eating too much oatmeal or black licorice (sounds weird but seems to have some affect), and activity level. As I said, this is my 25th year of having it and I've just started confiding in friends. It's taken me this long to get over the stigma. I married the person who gave it to me (and I believe him when he says he didn't know) and I have 2 almost-grown children. So much of my life has been spent thinking, "What if I hadn't gotten this horrible condition?" but I know I've been lucky that it has worked out as well as it has.

All of this to say that I do understand your depression and hopelessness. I considered suicide at first but then decided to make the best of it. There are still days when I get so angry and can't understand why this had to happen to me but they get fewer and farther between. Please know that so many of us are holding you in our hearts and wish we could take some of your pain away.