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i mean no disrespect to anyone so please don't take offense at what i may say. right now i am so angry. im angry at myself and at all the "normal" people that i see now. im so tired all the time and feel like im hanging over the toilet every five minutes. my life is ruined, and it was just soposed to be begining. its like having morning sickness but not being prego. i feel like i have to grow up so fast now and i hate it. i feel so alone and while i know there are others here going through the same thing somehow it doesn't feel the same. i just don't know what to do and i guess im scared as hell in all reality. my bf went to go get tested to be on the safe side but he says he needs time to think and that we are on hold until results come back. that means no talking or hanging out or even texting. i haven't talked to him or texted him for a day now and i feel like im going to die. sad i know. he says that he might be up for talking on saturday but im scared its going to be the "i can't do this" talk and he's going to leave. not like i could really blame him. im so sick of taking all these pills and still not feeling any better. how am i soposed to work if im constantly getting sick and dizzy? all i want to do is sleep and yet i need the money. school starts next week and i don't even know what to do about that. right now i feel like my life has ended and i know that it hasn't but thats what i feel at the moment. i just want it to be over and i know it never will be. when i first told my bf he said i was the same person ive always been but now im not so sure. im not strong and just want to curl up and sleep all the time, guess i just needed to rant some of my feelings

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"many emotions" is a great way to sum of the feelings of learning that you have herpes. I do feel that when you get to your normal routine, you will begin to feel better. Let me tell you; when I was first diagnosed in April 07, I told myself it was false positive even though I was sore and in pain for three months following the diagnosis. It was not until my second ob, 10 Aug 07, that I was able to accept and admit and say to myself "yes I do have herpes and yes I will be okay". For me, even though the prodome symptoms totally suck, the mental anquish I was putting myself through every single minute of every single day was just killing me. Don't get me wrong, I still hurt at times about it, get angry, blame myself, etc., but no where near how I was in April. Hopefully, even by you writing your post helped you to feel a little better????? I know it sucks taking all of vitamins and herbs, but we know we need to and it is to keep us healthy and keep this virus at bay. Chin up, things do and will get better.:)

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You didn't mention how old you are, but since you mentioned starting school next week, I'm assuming high school, right? That's young. Discovering you've got herpes is difficult even when you're older and more mature, so I can just imagine that this all seems overwhelming at your young age. Part of your bf's indecision has to do with his age, too, I'm sure. It's just as overwhelming for him as it is for you, especially if his test comes back positive. I know you want and need support from him, but he also needs to deal with this, and sometimes people just need some space, and to be alone so they can think clearly. Give him some time and let him come to his own decision. We all have to make our own decisions about what's best for us, and you can't make that decision for him. I know it's hard, but you have to respect his right to make his own choices.

I could tell you that your life isn't over, and also that things will get better, but until you begin to realize that on your own, they're just words. I know from experience that it's true, but you can't visualize that just yet. This is one of those things that requires a person to just keep putting one foot in front of the other, even if you think you can't, until you start to feel stronger again, physically and emotionally. You have to keep going through the motions until you can accept the changes in your life, make peace with them, and move forward with a purpose. And you will. I know that sounds like an impossibilty now, but it will come.

You say you're sick of taking pills, you're tired all the time, and sick in your stomach. What are you taking? If you're taking a prescription suppressive, like Valtrex, it could be that the pills don't agree with you. Some people do experience side effects. Herpes doesnt require any treatment at all, but the symptoms can often be managed quite well with vitamins or natural supplements. You may want to talk to your dr about that, although dr's are generally not very knowledgable at all about natural supplements. There's no reason to suffer side effects (if that's what it is) if you don't have to. If you feel you need something, you might want to consider Lysine or vitamins instead of a prescription med, if that's what you're taking now. Just a thought. Different things work for different people. If you're going to experiment with supplements, though, just do it safely. Anything can hurt you if you misuse it.

Keep your head up, honey. Your bf was right when he said you're still the same person, although it may not seem like it just now. Your world got tilted off it's axis, but it will straighten up again. It always does. The only certainty in this life is change, but we learn to adapt and thrive. And you will thrive again. I promise. Let us know how you're doing, okay?

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It will get better... I know everyone says that, but it's true. For me personally, it did take a little while to feel better because honestly, I couldn't feel better while I was suffering from aches and pains. For me, my primary outbreak made me sooooo tired. I also *hurt* a lot. Aches and pains will definitely bring your mood down. The medication I took did help with the pain, but it did not stop the fatigue or aches so much. For 2 weeks all I wanted to do was sleep. I even lost weight cause I felt so fatigued. While going through all of that it was hard to think of things being better, but... wow... once I finally felt free of symptoms, I felt like I had life back again. The change in my mood was amazing... like going from a walking zombie back to the living.

As for dealing with the bf problems, it's hard to deal with something when you feel so bad. Hopefully you will be able to mentally deal with whatever happens once you physically feel better.

If you are having trouble with side effects from the medication you could either try a different med or stop taking it and see what happens (some of the bad feelings might be from herpes and the stress over getting the diagnosis, but some do not tolerate meds well). As writercll mentioned, there are several other treatments that a lot of people try.

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thanks for listening to me. it feels so much better to know that there are people out there who care and know what im going through. i start college next week, im 18 and the bf is 20 so yeah we're both pretty young. i started feeling bad before i found out what it was. i had the fever, the fatigue and the nausea before everything. now im on valtrex twice a day along with some hydrocodone for the pain. they say the first OB hurts the worst and i really hope i don't have to go through one like this again but i know everyone is different. maybe its the valtrex, or my immune system still being down, or a combination but i still feel tired all the time. i don't want to be stressed anymore and i still feel sick to my stomach. i feel like ive been eating crackers for days. i managed to get a baked potatoe down today and made some mashed potatoes for dinner so i guess thats a good sign....i hear everyone mention taking vitamins and all this other stuff....could someone explain a little more to me please? I know that apparently im soposed to have better eating habits and change my diet a little but i have no idea to what. the bf texted me today and let me know that he got blood work done but would not know the results right away. he then asked if he was sure i have it. my gynocologist told me thats what i looks like and she has seen lots of it so i guess i do. she swabbed me and i go back on tuesday but i guess i won't know for sure until then. i mean, im pretty sure i have it since she prescribed me the meds for it. he just said ok and hasn't really spoken to me since. We are soposed to talk to one another on Saturday after i get off work (today was my first day back) but i don't even know what to say. i guess im just lost in general with all this. its so new to me. Im really glad that you all are here though, you don't know how much of a help you have already been. Its comforting to know im not alone....no matter how much i think i am at times.