Question:
I was diagnosed with GHSV-2 a little over 2 years ago - it was how I discovered that my boyfriend at the time was cheating on me. It was pretty awful, but I did my best to pick up the pieces of my life and move on.

I moved to a new city that had more of my friends in it (I was always at the edge of an emotional downward spiral - and I needed a good support system). I even found the courage to date again, tackling "the talk" on three separate ocasions: suitor #1 accepted it, still wanted to sleep with me - but he made me feel like I was a dirty whore for having it; suitor #2 acted as if it was no big deal when I told him - but then proceeded to drop off the face of the planet the next day; suitor #3 hugged me, kissed me, showered me with "safe affection" adn still expresses an interest at being with me, even though we haven't had sex yet.

For awhile, in the beginning, I wish we were having sex - and I was jealous of everyone one around us having sex, (at least that's how it seemed: friends hooking up with random people, casual "fwb" people, etc). I would cry to him, explaining that my tears were out of frustration with the situation, not with him. But now...

Now I'm glad we haven't slept together. Now I'm not even sure I want to sleep with him anymore. Well, physically, I'm dying to jump his bones - please don't get me wrong. But emotionally, I don't know if I can do that to him --- put him at risk of catching it. I care about him so much - why should I put him at risk for my own pleasure?

Which is one of the reasons I think a LOT about throwing in the towel, ending it, taking too much valium, etc. There's a lot of other reasons as well - I kinda suck at life. Sucking at life and infecting your loved ones? I feel like I should be removed from the planet; as if the universe made some mistake by not placing me on a plane that was supposed to go down or something.

I am weak. I am tired. I suck. Perhaps this will get the best of me.

Answer:
Hang on... you've put your sex life on hold?? Why!?

Jump him for gods sake! Or turn on the music, light the candles, and have a great night with him without having penetrative sex if you're that worried. Theres plenty of options - buy a vibe together and have him use it on you, fantasise that it's him. Massage, oral, mutual masturbation...the posibilities are endless! You'll soon find penetrative sex a bit boring if you explore the full, rich world of foreplay...

Use common sense if you want a fuck - condoms, no OB etc. But it's not the end of your sex life AT ALL!

Quite frankly, if suitors 1 & 2 reacted the way they did, then you had a lucky escape. Suitor 3 sounds like a good guy, have some fun!

Answer:
yeah, we do plenty besides intercourse. He's very gifted with his hands; and I give complete Bjs. And I can't jump somone who hasn't decided if they want to sleep with me yet. We are having lots of fun, and I think he's amazing --- which is exactly why I don't want to make him sick --- see what I'm getting at?

I'd rather off myself than expose someone that I care greatly about.