Question:
So, I have been internet dating on match.com and that is how I actually contracted the H in the first place-from a jerk on there who did not tell me. Anyway, after I got diagnosed about a month ago, I kind of was thinking I was going to take a dating break, but then this week this guy emailed me and we emailed a bit and then he wanted to meet. So yesterday we met for lunch, talked for almost 4 hours, then met up again last night and went to the movies and dinner. He ended up coming back to my apartment and we messed around, but no sex, almost, but I was hesistant. So, I know I need to tell him and was too chicken to last night so I just emailed him now. I am so afraid he will reject me. I really really like him. I know it is a chicken way out to email but he is the first guy I have had to tell this to and I think it is important that I tell him and I just had to email to get it off my chest. I just really do not want him to reject me. I guess if he does he is not the guy for me but he is so much of what I want in someone. It is so frustrating. I do not wish this upon anyone. Each day I hate the guy who gave it to me more and more. I feel like my life is ruined. I swear all I could think about while on my date yesterday was will this guy accept me? that is awful i know, but it consumes my thoughts....i hope he emails me back.

Answer:
So, this guy ended up coming over and we talked. He was so understanding. I really hope I did not give it to him from our messing around. i am having no symptoms and he did go down there orally a bit, i hope that was not a mistake. I know we should probably not have done that. I just feel so relieved. He did not reject me! I hope he continues to have the same attitude in the next few days.