Question:
for the first time since my initial outbreak, my husband and i had sex.

my valtrex Rx was finished and my lesions healed days ago. i had been dreading it because quite frankly im terrified of my crotch. i walk on eggshells cringing at every tickle or tingle i happen to feel throughout the day because the paranoia of impending outbreak recurrence has set in. its been 15 days since my diagnosis and yet i cant get over how horrified i still am about it all.

my husband has a history of cold sores and oral sex is apart of our repetoire of bedroom activities. its probably how i contracted it in the first place. sex tonight was incredibly awkward for me and i had a very hard time relaxing enough to enjoy being with my husband. all i could think about was how rough sex and menstruation are triggers for some people. well, rough and rowdy is how we prefer to get it on and i've got 3 days until i start my period again (on birth control, very predictable).

my husband has been absolutely wonderful with my diagnosis. he's been supportive and loving and encouraging and compassionate. what helps most of all is that he doesnt hesitate or hold back because i'm infected with this virus. i'd be devastated if i saw that in him. all i know is that i have to get past these feelings of impending DOOM, paranoia, self-loathing, and horror if im ever going to have fluent, efficient sex again.

Answer:
ya i was terrified at the first time after the ob as well.
but it gets better, and since ur hubby has it, atleast u dont have to worry about spreading it. trust me> need will over come your fears.
~ have fun.