Question:
Wow. I hadn't been onto the site in a while and i see BAM BAM BAM all these replies to my first entry. I feel like that was 10 years ago. I read and read and read so many entries that when i posted my story with my feelings i did it with confidence knowing that people like me would read it and it would either help them or they'd be indifferent. I had NO IDEA i was going to get attacked with such insults!

But whatever, that's you. I was speaking to my peers; helping people in my situation see through my eyes and avoid what happened to me (though if they're on this site, it's most likely already happened).

Good thing i wasn't suicidal when i read those replies, eh? I don't mean to chat shit, really i don't. I'm not conceited nor do i think "this" or "that" kind of person is the kind with herpes. I don't like stereotypes. I also don't like who i used to be, and herpes changed me for the better. I am so focused on my life and my performing career that i don't even look twice at a boy. One day, when i want to get married, that'll be hard. I'll have to go through what everyone else is going through..."telling the perspective lover." But for now, i'm avoiding that. Call me a coward, i just don't want to bring that kind of pain to myself--yet. And who knows? A lot of ya'll got lucky and found someone who either had it or was ok with you having it...i'm so happy for you.

In the meantime...i've found out friends of mine have herpes as well, and have been talking to them about it. Not just girlfriends, guy friends too. Pretty ones, popular ones, virginal ones...all kinds, because anyone can get herpes. They say the best way to learn something better is to teach it, and for me the best way to deal with having herpes is to help others deal with it. I had no shoulder to cry on, for my mother was ashamed of me and the person who infected me deceived me. So now, i am the shoulder, and it feels wonderful. No more sadness in my life.

Someday, i might find it in my heart to forgive the lying, deceiving adam-sandler-look-alike...but not yet.

And to those of you who read my story, commented on it (whether it was negative or positive) thank you for listening and i'll pay you the same respect.

Blessed be,
Amelie

Answer:
Hope the guns aren't pointed at me Amelie!

Glad to hear the point about teaching... welcome to my world - I'm glad to see you here.