Question:
I had just turned fourteen. I was going through depression and i decided to take a pill at the fair. I did not know what it was but it was making me forget everything I worried about. I was looking for a temporary releif. :cry: my heart was dying and I felt so alone. I was with a few friends who were, I guess trying to keep me out of trouble. well, they couldn't stop me from telling tis guy where I lived.

so one day at two or so in the morning he was tapping on my window, I was so stupid! :x i walked out of my house when he grabbed me and almost suffocated me! he raped me in a nearby construction site and i've been dealing with the disease ever since.

it hasn't been easy, i've only had it for a year. but im trying to move on!

Answer:
This is serious buisness. Did you report him? Are you in counseling? Please don't go through this alone. Do your parents know? You need support right now. This is a good place to get it but you might want to take legal action. I know that sounds hard. I also got this from a man who forced himself on me and wanted to go to court over it, but I was on a date with him and do share a tiny bit of the responsibility. Your situation is different though, that was flat out rape, you did absolutely nothing to bring this on yourself so don't ever feel responsible in anyway. You are so young and you shouldn't be alone through this. You need to work through both what happened and now this virus too. Don't worry about the herpes so much, everyone has it. As you work through this one day you will look in the mirror and say "I am so strong". Because of my experience with this I am going to school to be a counselor for people who have been through tramatic events. I was a victim and now I am a survivor. I hold my head high and move forward to make this world better for for all of us. If you were here I would give you the biggest hug and tell you how beautiful you are. You will get through this, it is going to be ok.

Answer:
at the very least you need to get some counseling on this... dont worry about your parents finding out.. generally speaking, any couselor would not be able to leagally tell your parents if you did not want them to know.
and sometimes while its good to have a freind that you can talk to, you have been placed in a situation that requires appropriate levels of support that can really only be gotten from one place... and thats counseling

Answer:
You are a survivor, not a victim. You have been through terrible trauma and you need guidence and support as others before me have said. Please tell your parents or a teacher or a trusted adult. I was molested & orally raped at the age of 4 and didn't tell anybody for 10 years, when it was too late to bust the guy. I suffered needlessly-I don't want to see you go through that. Take a stand for yourself. It will be difficult but YOU WILL MAKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!