Question:
Heyhey

Well.. here's the selfish decision I ended up making and screwing over myself.

I had a boyfriend for 2 years 8 months. But then I started building self esteem and confidence and wanted to experience being independent. So we broke up. The whole thing turned out to be a mess and I missed him. But before we got back together, I decided I wanted to have one last rebound sex before I committed again. Yeah, smart move. So I hooked up with an old friends with benefits. He convinced me he was clean because since the last clean test, he's only kissed a girl. So he didn't use a condom. The whole thing wasn't even worth it. I emotionally felt like crap. I don't know why I just didn't go to my boyfriend instead.

I got back together with my boyfriend the day after Christmas. I realized I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.

I was dealing with the flu. I was just starting to get better but then it came back for a second round with a vengeance.

The day after I started having a lot of vaginal discharge and it hurt to pee. I worried about chlamydia so I went to the doctor. He prescribed me doxycycline for 10 days.

A couple days later, one area of my vag started to look a little raw and it hurt when I peed.

The guy I fooled around with suddenly got a sore. And then tells me he now vaguely remembers getting head at a party he got completely hammered at. I freaked out. The next day I got a blister on my vag. I went straight to the doctors. He suspected herpes. He prescribed me valtrex two pills twice a day for 10 days. My world started to fall apart. I told my boyfriend what I had done. This was new years eve.

Another blister appeared and a cut. I had the worst flu ever at this point and spent a week in bed. Headache, chills, my body hurt, nauseous, didn't have an appetite, the whole 9 yards. I don't know if it was all the combinations of the meds I was taking or what my body was fighting.

My regular std results came out negative. No chlamydia or anything like that.

But I got a phone call a couple days ago. I went to the doctor's and found out I had tested positive for genital herpes.

I have strength in God and myself, but the whole thing is terrifying. I still cry about it. And the thing I regret the most is screwing my boyfriend over. He says he still wants to stay with me and be with me. He's upset and scared about everything too.

I try not to think about the past. I can't do anything to change the past. But it's like... that one little decision for the guy not to wear a condom, and it changes my life. I'm only 20 =(

I know I know I know I don't deserve my boyfriend for screwing over our future.. but he still wants to stay with me and I'm really greatful for that. I feel like I'm damaged goods now.

I'm still trying to figure out what to do. I know stress is a trigger but it's hard not to stress out over it. I think about it, I also have my period now, I just started my first semester at university so the whole thing's bewildering. I've changed my lifestyle. I used to just eat mostly junkfood and barely sleep. I'm eating healthy now, exercising, and sleeping at least 8 hrs a night. I'm trying to figure out how to lessen future outbreaks... meds.. all that stuff. Everything's so confusing.

=(

I had a question. I got a small tattoo 2 months ago. It's on the upper part of my ass (got it high enough so I won't sit on it, but low enough that my bikini bottom can cover it). It's been hurting lately and it's making me paranoid that herpes in my nerves is going to ruin it.. I shouldn't have to worry about it though right?

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I have 2 tatoos and i'm fine..

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I am tattooed all over.
So far, so good. ;)

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its prob cause ur stressed out, u need to relax, tattoos wont be affected by herpes but if ur stressing out, ur bodys not in its right stage to defend, and heal itself.
also has it fully healed already? like did the scab over, and 2 months passed perfectly fine> n then pain?