Question:
Hi. New to the forum. What a great place. I hope I don't have herpes but if I do I'll be here ALL the time! I've read alot about peoples feelings and can deffinately relate. I don't have a deffinate diagnosis or clear symptoms (thought they feel clear and scary to me!) but am already suffering the "my life is over..." anxiety. First let me say that I have had problems with anxiety for years. I've been medicated on and off, have had pannic attacks that cause me to pass out... I have generally lived an unhappy life so far (32 yo), starting out with unsupportive, emotionally unavailable parents and moving to / through relatiosnhips that feel the same (I've been engaged twice and I called it off both times). I ended a relationship in Nov and have been painfully lonely and self loathing, which led me to try and fix that with casual unprotected sex - doesn't work I found out (first time just before the new year, last encounter Jan27th, same guy). On top of that, once I realized the possibility that I could have gotten something from him I FREAKED! I had a sore throat for a week that started immediatly after the last time I slept with this guy. My MD said it was a normal virus going around and would go away but gave me meds for bacterial STD in case. It went away. But then I started obsessively worring about herpes - it was / is ALWAYS in my mind somehwere. Then I started having "symptoms". I think it started with a sensation in my lip, sort of sore or slightly numb. but nothing ever showed up in that spot. I felt other things too in various places, twinges, pains, you name it, that would come and go. I got what I assume to be a zit under my nose (above the areas of lip where I had the sensation but not in the xact spot) and what I think was a blackhead in the very edge of my bottom lip, same side. Both of which I messed with, popped, stuck with pin to drain. They scabbed and healed, did not hurt more than a zit put through all those torments would. I also started having "sensations" down below and obsessively observing / worrying about that. I noticed a bump on my outer labia in a place actually that I had one before that was determined to be a cyst or something, but still obsessed about that. I had it looked at and my GYN stuck with the cyst. It was under the skin and mildy tender, not a vesicle on the skin as I understand herpes to be, so I'm tending to believe that. Basically I have myself convinced on and off that I have oral or genital or both. I figure if he had it in either location I must have it in both based on our activites. This guy BTW, who I found out gets alot of action, said to me, "no way. I get tested every 6 months"! I was like, is that supposed to make me feel better!?
Most recently, I guess starting over a week ago I have a burning sensation on the side of my right lower lip. My GYN suggested chapping, thinks I am most likely fine given that It's been over a month since possible xposure, bla bla bla, and that I'm obsessing. I admitt I am worrying alot. But at the same time the possiblilty is real. She did draw for a type specific test which I await.
Here is my specific question:
This burning in my lip stareted over a week ago. I don't feel it all the time. I felt it, it went away, I started worrying somehwhat less, yesterday I had a very psychologically stressfull day invloving drama with a good friend of mine and also with my ex. I was home dealing with my feelings about those things and decided to ballance my check book to get my mind off things (though it created some anxiety about money) and was doing so when I felt the burning start again. So since then I'm obsessively worrying. Actually right now I am feeling some numbness and vague tingeling in another part of my upper lip on the other side, sort of where the one "zit" was but not in the area I was just talking about. I know it's very possible that I am manifesting, but I'd like as much information, thought they may be opinions, as possible.
Sorry, my question is would the sensations come and go with in one hour, day, week like that? And not materialize anything?
I'd love to write more but have to go meet a friend for dinner and this is long enough anyway!
Thanks in advance for any advice, info, or words of wisdom!
K

Answer:
U need to go back to that doc & specifically ask for a herpes test. for 1 & 2 hun.

I can't believe the doc didn't recommend it. But that's the uneducated side of HSV...it's so in the dark...the docs don't test for it unless you ask and I think it should be a routine std test such as trich, clamydia and gonnorhea..all that.

I definitly think you have HSV1..and towards the end of your post..u got me thinking towards HSV 2...

just get tested or you'll keep obsessing...don't you wanna know ??