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2 days after my due date, I went to the hospital in extreme pain ( vaginal pain) At the hospital I discovered I had a primary outbreak of herpes. They admitted me and I had a scheduled c-section. But because the herpes virus was in my blood I could not have an epidural, I had to be completely asleep. To this day I still feel great pain and a feeling of loss. I felt very disconnected from my child. I went to sleep pregnant and woke up not pregnant. What were the last 9 months for!! I feel like I missed out on the biggest day of my life. I am not affected by herpes so far other then the primary outbreak at the birth of my beautiful now 6 month old child. When someone talks about herpes, I get upset because it reminds me of a sad memory. Herpes made the last week and half of my pregnancy hell. The doctors gain me a numbing cream just so I could pee and even with the cream the pain was still horrible. I felt like someone kicked me in the crotch over and over again. I am not terribly upset that I have herpes. My husband and I are each others firsts. I found out that you can pass herpes orally to the genitals. My husband had oral herpes and that is how I got genital herpes.

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god, i bet most women would love to fall asleep and wake up with a baby other then going throw all that pain.....

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jodina,

your doctors did what they had to do to keep you and your child safe. don't fret over being asleep while the baby was born, it was all for the good and safety for both of you. cherish that healthy baby and be thankful that the doctors knew the signs of herpes and kept your child from being born and living with the virus for her entire life. i would be forever grateful to the doctors and loving that healthy baby every day of my life.

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I totally feel for you,although i have had 2 epidural sections and one normal delivery,After my last section,it all went terribly wrong and had to be given a general anaesethic,and to save my life was given an emergency hysterectomy,so was out of it for days, while my baby was in neo-natel.
Every one was telling me how lovely he was,and taking loads of pictures, yet i couldn't see him.
With my first section there is no doubt my baby would of not survived, had i had a normal delivery, i felt such a failure, that i could not deliver naturally, a visitor once said to me, that "was i going to it properly next time?"

One of the health visitors then said to me as i was so upset,yes you could of had a straight forward delivery, but at what cost to your baby???
To be honest that put everything into perspective for me,yes you could of had a nicer delivery, but would your beautiful baby be in such good health??
I hope you feel better soon, you will i promise, it just takes time, the best bits are yet to come!!


Take care

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I am not angry that the doctors decided I needed a c-section. I was actually quite relieved, I had, had a very horrible pregnancy and was glad that it would end in no more pain. What upsets me the most is that I was completely asleep. I didn't go through anything to feel like I had brought a child into the world. In the beginning I didn't even feel like she was mine. I am sure most women would love to go to sleep and wake up with a baby, but most of those women haven't had a c-section and don't know the connection they are missing out on. I am angry I had herpes because I had to be put to sleep, but at the same time when I found out I was having a c-section I was grateful because herpes provided a end to my painful pregnancy.