Question:
I don't know how to deal with this depression... I have been diagnosed 2 weeks ago... Just when I met the man I think is the one I could marry. The worst thing is that I've been a virgin until 26 and had sex for the first time with my best friend after a death in the family... I've only had sex a few times and this is what I get in return. It just seems to unfair and I don't know how to deal with it.... All I think about is how much I want to kill myself. I don't even know how to tell this guy I'm dating now... I've already made up stupid excuses the last time but when I see him next weekend, I'm gonna have to tell him because he wants to "make love to me".... And I just know he'll leave me....
I can't even tell anyone because I'm so ashamed... Only my mother knows and she is so scared I might infect my sister that my laundry is done separately...
I can't get out of bed.... All I do is cry all day long.... I need help but I'm too embarrassed and ashamed to ask for it....

Answer:
I have a feeling that you just want to feel better and have hope that life will be good again. I promise you that things will get better - it is just very very hard in the beginning and often our fears get the best of us. There is no reason to believe that your life is over or you will always be alone. I know that this is a hard thing to deal with. I can only tell you that with time you will not feel so despondent. No one deserves hsv.

Suicide is not going to make stuff better. Ultimately it is a very selfish act that will only hurt the people around you who love you. Is that what you really want to do?

You are not going to infect your family from towels and laundry. Mom needs to know some facts. It is not fair for her to put this burden on you that way. Just make sure you wash your hands after touching any infected areas. Explain to mom that it doesn't transmit that way.

First I want to ask you if you have been sexually active in any way with your new man? Because you could get it from him. Secondly, did you know that oral sex is a way to contract herpes? It may not technically take your virginity but you can get std's from participating in oral sex practices.

Here is a link to help you understand hsv.


Give yourself some time. don't make any rash decisions.

Answer:
I'm just so scared...

Come to think of it... We did have oral sex.. or rather he gave me but it was before I got the disease... This is just so confusing... I guess it could have been him, I just don't know... Mostly, I'm just trying to get myself out of my room and don't know how to deal with everything... I just feel so ashamed...