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the guy i was seeing said from the start when i found out that i might have it that he wasnt leaving me. that he'd be here to support me through this. it was a lie. as soon as he found out that he didnt have it he pushed me to the side. im breaking down at every moment because this is really stressing me to the fullest. its good when you have a support system. and he said he would be mine. he said he wouldnt leave and he did. i feel sooo alone. abadoned and i feel like im falling into a deeper depression. i know i should focus on me...but its hard. i was in love. really in love for the first time in years...and he fucked me worse than all the other guys who have been in my life. i dont know what to do. cuz im shutting down. i feel it and i dont know how to stop it. my heart is broken and im mad at the person who played god with my life and gave me something that i cant get rid of. love has not rememered me...sad but true. and im starting to believe that true love is another 8 letter word just like bullshit.

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AWWWW bluhearfire ... u need a *hug* ... I am sorry to hear he broke it off with u ... I am going thru the same thing except my BF actually contracted GH from me ... I feared he would leave if he was negative and I feared that he would eventually hate me if he were positive ... Well he was positive and he left me anyway ...

I am just as depressed as you are and what gives me hope are some of the stories here ... I read the board constantly cause I have no life right now ... I don't even want to see anyone cause I am harboring this big secret and the only person who knows is my EX ... I don't want to tell another soul about my having GH ... The reason being is I don't need anyone accidently telling or telling on purpose and have people talk about me behind my back. So chances are I won't tell anyone...

Now I am stuck having to deal with this on my own ... I know I didn't help but you are not alone in this ... and all I can say is I hope you pull thru cause it sucks, it really sucks ...

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hey,
thanx for that. you did more than you think you did. like i said before its nice to talk to people who are going through what im going through. and it looks like you are. im hurting real bad from this. not so much outbreaks or whatever. just mentally. im hurting. today he treated me like i was invisible. he spoke and that was it. we've been close since we met. and its like our whole friendship changed with the arrival of his results. its weird cuz he told the decision whether to end it with me or not was the hardest thing he'd ever had to do. we havent officially ended it but it feels over. our whole body language towards each other is off. i dont see myself in his eyes like i did before. thursday after we talked he looked at me with love in his eyes. today it was like i was a stranger. i dont know what to do. i feel like he hates me. i feel like shit because if he really is negative then i couldve fucked up his life like i feel somebody else did mine. im sorry to you too that you and your guy broke up. its really hard i know. but like you im gaining strength from reading these stories on here. talking to people who are going through what i am. it makes me feel like im not alone. i have my family and they know whats going on with me. i wish you could tell yours. i hate that theres somebody out there who feels like they dont have any one to confide in. whenever you need to talk im here. feel free to write anytime. maybe we could provide support in a way to each other. its nice to meet you. bye

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You just found out about your situation and you need time to adjust and so does he. My GF and I are going through the same thing. She just found out she has it. It's tough for me too and I like your BF have mixed feelings about it. Give him time and talk to him about whats going through your head and through his. It will help. For now I've decided I care about my girfriend and obstaining from sex and working on our relationship will probably be better for both us in the future.

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thanx,
i read what ya'll wrote and in a way it made me feel better. although are biggest prob is he doesnt know how we can continue a physical relationship with me having this. its almost like he thinks that people with herpes cant have sex anymore. i too kinda feel that way i guess...i know there are ways but if he really is negative i couldnt forgive myself if we followed all the safe sex practices and he got it anyway. it would kill me. im having enough trouble as it is just to let him hug me. but he's mostly afraid of if we try to contain our sex to just kissing and what not...that we wont be able to control ourselves. im too the point where i just wanna give up on him. but then i dont. i love him...and the thought of not holding him and kissing him anymore is just hurting me inside. we keep going back and forth...we are and then were not together...idk...im soooo confused...wrapped in im in love for the first time since high school...and i dont wanna lose it...but i think i might have to just let it go...this on the fence thing is not helping my state of mind...and i need to focus on me...

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Blu -

How old are you?

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24.....y? how are you and its nice to meet you...

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you sounded like you could have been younger.

when i was only 19 I thought that love would never find me again.

youve got plenty of years to find a good man.

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honey,
i had one...and he let his insecurities bout whats goin on wit me tare us apart...we tried to make it work but it was time for me to walk away. it'll be a while before i go back there...i love him....gotta get him outta my system. maybe one day he'll be back. till then we're still friends...