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Yesterday i went to trim below the belt and i noticed a blister at the base of my penis. There were three other very small ones present close to it. Needless to say i freaked, i went to the doctor and his first response was herpes. He asked me if the sores hurt and i said not at all. He took a blood sample and said it would take a week to get the results. He put me on valtrex and this other topical cream called aldara because he thought that since they didn't hurt it could be mollescum. The more research i've done to learn about symptoms the more depressed i'm getting because i fit all the signs. I can't eat, sleep, go to school, or work. I feel like my world is falling apart around me. I've never had unprotected sex with anyone girlfriend or one night stand, i've always used condoms. The anxiety is eating me alive. I'm not a terribly attractive man and i have not had too many partners, less then 5 in my life time so i'm trying to think of when this could have happened. My last sexual encounter was almost 2 months ago so i'm hopeing the blood test can give an accurate diagnosis. I can't tell anyone about this, especially my family, and i know my so called friends would judge me. I've been dealing with depression prior to this incident and i honestly just wanted to drive off a cliff comeing back from the doctor's but didn't because of the love i have for my family especially my little brother. I feel so ashamed to talk to them or even visit them. I live in socal and they are in norcal and i maybe see them once or twice a year but now that short time i have with them will be guilt rideened and shameful. I know i don't know for sure but in my head i might as well have, too many things are not looking good for me. I feel so alone and ashamed. I feel like i can never meet someone who would look past something like this because until it happened to me i couldn't look past an issue like this. My dreams of a wife and family are shattered, not that the chances were too great to begin with, but now its hopeless. The fear and shame are eating me alive. All i want to do is drink myself to death or do as many drugs are possible. My life is over becasue i had to be a fucking horny dumbass and have pre-marital sex. I have no one to blame but myself and the pain is almost too much to handle. The doc said they would either have the results this friday or by monday but in my mind i might as well have both 1 and 2. This forum has been the only place i could find some comfort because i'm so alone in this. I apologize for the length of my message but i need to get these words out because this is all i think about.

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Life isn't over. It'll be ok. I just recently got herpes and I'm 19 and have only been with one man in my life. Just my luck! These feelings you are having will subside in time... I was depressed, couldn't stop crying for two days, felt dirty and like no one would ever want to be with me. Now, I'm just trying to be optomistic. What else can we do? All the prayers and tears in the world aren't going to change our situation. So just give it time... Having this doesn't change who you are, except hopefully make you stronger.

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I was just diognosed with Genital Herpes Simplex 1. I've been reading a bunch of articals since I found out and they've helped out. Most people aquire some form of herpes throughout their lives, some in the form of cold sores, some in the form of genital sores. I'm unsure of how different each type is, minus the fact that some types reoccur more than other types. I'm still trying to gather up information about it myself.

At first, I thought it was the end of the world, and I wouldn't be able to go on, yadayadayada. As far as I can tell, it's painful, and it sucks, but I have it, The world must go on, and I will live another day.

I'm only 20 years old.

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Everything happens for a reason. Go out there and get yourself different friends. You can try joining a church like the Saddleback in Orange County: the model is that congregation is divided into groups of people with certain similarities. At the very least you will be surrounded by compassioanate people who you could socialize with and maybe do some volunteer activities that will open your eyes on the world and maybe help you meet a nicer girl. I dont belong to any church but I thought it might be a good idea.

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darlin,
i know its hard but you gotta keep your head up. im goin through similar feelings but the thing is life goes on...your not alone. i felt that way too when i first found out. my family knows and they support me. me and my guy friend are trying to get back on track. never sell yourself short its not the end of the world. just think positive. its taking me some time but this group, reading all these stories seeing that there are people who feel or have felt what im goin through is helpful. i really hope you start feeling better and dont think of ending man. i got drunk one night after i found out and really scared some of my friends b/c they thought i was gonna end it all...its not worth it honey. just try to stay positive. its not the end. and it does get better....

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I was diagnosed with herpes about 4 months ago and thought my life was over. I even attempted to end it and landed in the state hospitol. Since my suicide attempt I have realized Herpes is just another obstacle life has thrown me and with all the other obstacles I have encountered this to will be one that I will overcome. I really thought I was the only one out there that had this devastating virus but even looking at this website and through my network of friends have realized I am not alone. When I first found out I had this virus I freaked out! My doctor tried to assure me that it was going to be ok and that many people have this virus. I thought I was going to be alone for the rest of my life and if anyone were to find out I would be ostrasized and I would loose all my friends. But thinking about it, all my friends knew me before I had this virus why would one small thing change that. Its just a lesson learned that I need to be more careful in my decision making and think of the consequences because they are real and its something that I am going to deal with for the rest of my life. Just know your life isn't over, everyone on this website has dealt with herpes in one way or another and there are millions more out there that either haven't found this website or don't feel like coming forward. As far as marriage goes I've learned if someone really loves you there going to love you for you no matter if you have herpes or not. I got herpes after breaking up with my boyfriend of a year and half and I slept with someone new, I even attempted going back to my ex boyfriend and even after telling him he assured me that he still loved me and always would. That just goes to show, if someone really does love you, Love is forever not just a state of being.

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Its not aids so herpes wont kill you. that should cheer anyone up. I go to school and Im a newly infected and Im discovering most of the pretty girls have herpes due to their sexual exhibitions because of their looks. So Im not bothered I have it.

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Hey friend! (you do have friends, future, past, present, etc.) We have all been where you are: Getting the symtoms, seeing your doc, waiting for the test results and not everyone reacts the same but I felt just like you do. I don't anymore though. Not for sometime. Actually, and I'm embarrased somewhat but I'm just hating men lately and I haven't met anyone that is sex or relationship worthy since I've been diagnoised anyway ..that's not true maybe. The truth is after a while if your not having an outbreak, its not on your mind ALL THE TIME like it is right now, you start to care about other things and if your like me and some how get some sick satisfaction about worry about things anyway, you will find new (and old) things to worry about again besides the fact you have some virus. I have always wanted a husband, children the american dream and even a dog and a picket fense to boot... however, I trust God is with me and knows what i need when i need it etc etc. I get different reactions when i bring up God, like God thought it would be a good idea for us to get herpes...blah blah blah. No, I don't think so. God didn't give me herpes. I personally got herpes from having sexual "relations" with someone who had the virus, just as I caught a cold from someone who had a virus. God did give me sexual instincts to seek and enjoy sex; i am however a sinner and chose to have sex before marriage ...many times. I am a sinner. Hello? God already knows this, he sent his son Jesus to die on the cross for our sins. I am a good person with a big heart. I have a virus called herpes. I also have a bad temper sometimes...AND?

Also, I must tell you... there are so many more sunsets for you to see and exerience, so many long weekend trips, so many more boat rides, so many more books to read, so many more first kisses, you will fall in love again and probably have your heart broken and break some hearts until it is your time to find the one thats right for you . In His time not ours it will happen for us as it should. I may never own a white picket fence, saddly enough (and this one DOES break my heart!!!) but i may never have children, whats meant to be will be and alot of it will be beautiful and some will not but its my life and if I choose for this day forward to be the best me I can be (and for me that includes praying and seeking God's will); do good feel good, do bad feel bad. Love yourself enough to let yourself mourn the fact that you may have contracted herpes (do you even know for sure yet?) and then stick around here. Vent it out, comfort others and eventually I feel you will need to confide in a real person, but not today... if the time isn't right. Today maybe rent a feel good movie, light a candle, call you aunt betsy or grandma or someone you love just to see how THEY are doing and you will feel better. Swear I'm not trying to order you, I just feel your pain and I love you and want you to realize this too shall pass, not the virus perhaps but your saddness will pass.

God bless you!

...lol, now I'M SORRY for writing so long! Jeez! Write anytime friend, K!?!!!