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hi everyone. im nikkie. im 17 years old and i was just recently diagnosed with genital and cold sore herpes...::sigh::... i never thought it would happen to me and the worst thing is.. i dont know how long ive had it or who i got it from. over the course of my short life i have made many mistakes... i had a horrible childhood.. my mom was and still is addicted to crack and we never had a sufficient food supply or adequate necessities.

i ended up turning to cocaine when i was 15 and got all caught up with my 21 yr old boyfriend at the time.. who was taking care of me..kind of. i guess i was watching my mother go so far down hill that i needed to escape by getting caught up in a horrible world of my own... ive had 18 sexual partners in my lifetime. i know that sounds bad... but i never did hook up with anyone completely random which doesnt make it any better but i mean at least i knew the people i slept with... anywho... my current boyfriend and i have been dating a month and we both recall him having a cold sore at the beginning of our relationship... he thinks he gave it to me... but were not sure.

i got test results from my doctor and am currently taking medicine. my boyfriend, however, hasnt went to the doctor because he doesnt have insurance...

i have never had a breakout.. no cold sore or anything.. and im hoping ill never have to experience one, although im sure i will. i have come to terms and accepted that it is something i will be infected with for the rest of my life. this was caused by my own bad choices and decisions and i fully accept it. i would just like to talk about it with other people who know waht i am and will be going through.


if u read all of this, thank you.

sincerely...nikkie.
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Answer:
First of all, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself you sound almost as if you think you deserve this. There are people who haven't had the challenges you've faced and we still got it. So having it has nothing to do with character or circumstances. I don't know you but you sound like a pretty together 17 year old. You seem to have taken the diagnosis better than most of us and we're much older :) Personally, I don't even think having herpes is your biggest issue. While it's definitely something that you shouldn't ignore you shouldn't let the diagnosis control you either. You're 17, get yourself an education, if not college take a class in something that will enable you to always be able to take care of yourself. Stay away from your "friends" who are still doing the same negative things that you want to get away from. Most of all, take care of yourself. You've got a lot of life ahead of you, place yourself in a position to enjoy it instead of survive it. I want you to know that I am in no way judging you but I understand only too well where you're coming from and I am personally telling you that where you're from has nothing to do with where you're going. Getting back to herpes, the first outbreak is usually the worse so when you do get it just remember it'll get better. Do your best to stay healthy i.e. exercise, eat well. There are supplements you can take (Lysine, Olive Leaf etc.) that may help you. When/if you start having them then you may want to get on some meds if they're bad enough. Valtrex is the most popular but it's expensive there are other meds that work as well. Walmart I've heard has extremely reasonable prices for them. Take care.