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A year ago by this time I honestly thought I was going to die. :(

When I hear of people's first outbreaks... they seem so small compared to how horribly my "area" was ravaged by open sores... I couldn't even count how many were down there. I contemplated suicide... so many different times (until I eventually decided that I was going to live my life).

I contracted the :evil: demon..(virus)..at 18 :oops: . Along with my first outbreak was the most horrible upper respitory infection that I have ever had (my temp was 102+)... I sincerely HATED who I had become.

I don't know who I contracted it from and I doubt that I will never know because I was too afraid to ask (which I whole heartedly regret now).

I remember going to the doctor quite vividly. :oops: She probed my area for a good 2 minutes with a cold metal device (with another nurse looking on)... and it hurt so bad that I remember the pillow being soaked with my tears. Those 2 minutes felt like 2 years... 2 lifetimes, even. :cry:
In what seemed to be the most important moment of my life (up til then)... she simply handed me a piece of paper... with bold letters on top reading "Genital Herpes". I couldn't read the smaller print words because my eyes were full with sorrow.
I left the doc's office with a bag full of Valtrex... and I can't recall the events after............... :cry:

I have only shared this with a few Men whom I have found myself infatuated with. Those who care still Stand... I'm standing alone.

BUT..................

This virus IS NOT GOING TO KILL ME! I've been reading on more complex viruses (HIV)... and there are actual known cases of the extinction of the virus in "less developed countries" who use herbal remedies against the virus. I believe that if science can clone, they can work a way around this dis-ease!

What has helped me:
Women, please pay attention.
Understanding the value and worth of my Womb. It is much more than a hollow space... once you value your Womb, you value who YOU are! :wink:

I am now a vegetarian and have had very few outbreaks (incidentally when I slipped on my healthy eating habits, I am now suffering with an outbreak). You CAN BEAT this annoyance!!!!!!! 8)

And I'm sure it's been stated before....
But Life is so much more than being boxed in by some dis-ease...

Be grateful for your Life...
Dry your eyes...
and let's keep on Truckin'!!!! 8)

PEACE AND BLESSINGS!!! :wink:

Answer:
Thank you.
Just when I feel alienated and alone in my feelings your message brought me more perspective.
It's not so much the challange of the virus itself but our own ideas about what we think it makes us.
I'm truckin right on with you!

Peace and Love
Leah

Answer:
Thx for this post--it is very comforting for me. I'm going through my very first outbreak and mine is similar to yours...

Are you still taking Valtrex? And how often do you have outbreaks now?
Thx

Answer:
Im glad to hear you dont let this pesky virus ruin your life, we cant let such a small problem cause us to not live!