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mentally scarred

Question:
i had a dream last night, i'd had this dream before, i'll give you some background information first, i had a serious boyfriend for two 1/2 years, he might have had coldsores and i might have type 1 from him but we broke up and six months later i thought i'd give the single, no boyfriends, casual sex lifestyle, i'm 18 and two guys older than me wanted to have sex but i told them i didn'r feel comfortable then i met tom he was my age charming so i had sex with him then out of the blue i met dan my age too and he wanted a relationship very sweet guy and i had sex with him. ok, back to the dream, i dream i've slept with some horrible, ugly guy and wake up thinking it really happened sometimes i want to kill myself because i think bad thoughts like i was "easy" tom was an arse about the situation when i asked him to get tested he said it was my fault and refused to talk to me. i think bad thoughts like if one (actually 2) werent that great looking why did i do it? i'm sooo confused it's like i'm glad in some ways bebause i think it's made me wiser but in other ways i'm soo paranoid know about what people will think about me if they knew that i had herpes, like i want to move in to unit with a girlfriend and be able to talk about personal stuff with her but i dont think i could bring myself to tell her i have herpes what if she thinks she'll get it from a toilet seat or towels, she's pretty perfect. i think i need to join a herpes support group but im abit embarrased, fuck........

Answer:
we all made mistakes and you def can't beat yourself up over having sex with anyone. right now i'm wondering if i got this from my x who cheated on me withs omeone who has it or from my current boyfriend who if that's the case he didn't know he had it. luckily we're staying by each others side and neither one of us is upset. as for moving in with your "perfect" friend. if she's a real friend she'll be there for you and support you. if she thinks she'd get it from towels or the toilet seat she can always surf the weba nd educate herself. i was just diagnosed yesterday and already i know all i need to know from the web and speaking to my doctor. your not a leper your still a human being just like everyone else. :D i'm slowly learning life will change a little bit but if you have good people around you it really helps. good luck and God bless.

Answer:
your young and you like sex theirs nothing wrong with that you are not a "slut" by any terms i hate that negitive word and i hate how guys can just sleep with ten people and they get applauded for it where as we get called "sluts", makes me sick! anyway your not dead you can live your normal life just with a little bit of changes. have you been put on preventive medicine? i think you should be informitive to your soon to be roomate not only for her but for you. you should know whats going on in your body plus it will help her not freak out as much if she knows facts. the only way she could get it from a towel is if you have an outbreak and the towel is wet and you dry that area then right after she takes it and drys herself with it. herpes cant live out of your body so they usally die within a few seconds once they hit oxgyen. you cant even catch it from soap. its your choice who you tell about your condition dont feel pressured at all. heres a link that ive been giving everyone its very helpful in understanding what you have


hope this gives you some piece of mind, good luck with everything
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