Question:
:o just found out.....well actually doc took a culture swab..and it came back negative, but what else could this be...ulcers on my stuff!!! :cry: it hurt oooohhhh soooo bad.. first thought...who gave this too me?? do i really have herpes?? i want to die....i swear while i waited for the test results..i felt like killing myself...is there really a reason to live after herpes? well i got the results back..negative....i was crazy happy..but only for a minute..cuz what else could this be...my stuff was swollen, couldn't pee...cuz it waz ssoooo painfull, and plus ulcers around my vagina...i cried for days, didn't want to do anything...im so frustrated i snap at ppl for no reason... this guy im seeing i told about all this, and he said we'll figure this out together....but im sooo scared that he'll leave me now...i take lordtabs at night just so i can sleep..and it numbs the pain~in my brain..not physical pain..its all so much more mental... i feel as if no one will ever want to be with me anymore, i feel dirty... sometimes i feel that i can live through this..and at others,,,, i think death is an option..

Answer:
you can live through this and you will! so many people have! a friend of mine was tested a bunch of times and came back negative, but she's positive (and so is her doctor) that she has herpes. so that does happen. get support from the people here! we're all suffering too, or have suffered, so we can give you advice and offer you support. herpes is NOT deadly! it's not a cancer. it's a major inconvienience, and one we can live with. the people who truly care about will not leave your side!

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youre not dirty. There are so many people with herpes its not even funny. Also, think about it like this...if you have had chickenpox you have a form of herpes already.

Herpes has such a bad stigma yet people dont know shit about it. The first outbreak did suck but the others that I have had have been so minor...its NOTHING. Ive had yeast infections worse than this. Its all a stigma.

I kind of went through this too but I think its okay. You have it and now you have to deal with it in a positive fashion. The more you worry yourself over it the worse it will be.

Plus scientists are working on a "cure" or a supressive thearapy that will supress the virus forever. There will be something out there in a few years. Things will get better!