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Has anything like this ever happened to you where your life has just been impacted by single life of a lost loved one that there doesnt go a day where you don't think about how that person has impacted your life?
Last week I wend to the Milkin and Botvina memorial service, this family was murdered last week in the city of Kirkland and had their house torched to cover up the crime. At the memorial service Olga Milkins (one of the women who was a wife to a fellow Sgt. who was fighting in Iraq) mother in law shared a testimony how she asked Olga one time what her name meant. My name is Olga too (My nic name is Olia which is a softer version of saying Olga in Russian that is.) and this has never hit me this bad as to think deep about what my name means. Olga Milkin's mother in law told her several times that her name means "Holy" and one time Olga answered back "Yes I know, I try as hard as I can to live up to that." There's not a single day that goes by right now where I don't think about this. My main hearts desire is to one day become holy just like all of us (I'm sure) here desire the very same thing.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not doing enough to glorify God, there's so much that I see and want to take care of but I often times fall and get back up again oly to fall again. This gets me to think why my mother even gave me the name Olga which means "Holy" when I can't even live up to that name. Sometimes this brings me to tears because I want to change so much spiritually and I can't because I sin too
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I know what you are taking about. Death brings back thoughs not only if that person has inpacted you but how you have impacted others. We all fall and get up then fall again sometime in our lives. Then we all want to become more like Christ but we feel that we can't. Guess what God is helping us become more like him even if we feel we are not. Don't give up keep on trying to become more like God. He Loves you!
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Originally Posted by LiLJesusFreak
Sometimes I feel like I'm not doing enough to glorify God, there's so much that I see and want to take care of but I often times fall and get back up again oly to fall again. This gets me to think why my mother even gave me the name Olga which means "Holy" when I can't even live up to that name. Sometimes this brings me to tears because I want to change so much spiritually and I can't because I sin too I don't know too much about the first part....but I know a lot about the last part......I have felt that way many times....like I need to do everything I can to "save the world"...and I realize I let it stress me out....and I often fall....I believe its because I put to much pressure on myself to be perfect....when even as close as we think we can get sometimes....we can't and we were made with imperfections....and what we can do is live life as best as we can.....enjoy it, and help people also....I find that I have to come back to God and get the same answer....that I'm not perfect, I'm still human, and that you can't be responsible for "saving the world"....I can do what I can...and live the best I can....and that's all God could ask for....
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i definitely know how you feel. truth is, not one person in this world can really do enough, because there's always more and more to do. none of us are perfect, and that's perfectly fine.
think of it this way:
i am homeschooled and except for youth trips, i don't really know anyone i can witness to (except a few people here on CGR), but if i helped one person, JUST ONE person turn to Jesus, it was worth it to be alive here on this earth so that i could do so. i would be happy for the person that was saved, not just trying to do more and more just so God would be happy with me. because he already is happy. he couldn't be any happier that i got that one person to turn to him.
hope this helps.
just know that none of us are perfect, and God loves you the same no matter who you are or what you've done. be thankful for that.
just know that no matter what, God loves you always and will never leave you.
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Originally Posted by sunsurfer but if i helped one person, JUST ONE person turn to Jesus, it was worth it to be alive here on this earth so that i could do so.
wow sunsurfer nailed it....that is completely correct...if we help even one person it was worth it for us to be on earth and go through all the pain and confusion....