Question:
I'm having kind of a rough time at the moment. It's not that I've done anything terrible, but I feel like I've pretty much wasted the last couple of months.
It all started towards the end of last year. I was really busy with school and when the year finally finished, I completely crashed. After my last exam, I was so sick for about a week that most of the time I just wished I was dead because I physically felt so horrible. I recovered pretty quick physically, but I think mentally was a different story. I had planned to do a lot things over the holidays (writing, recording, hanging out with friends, etc), but I basically just spent the whole time watching movies when I wasn't working.
I guess this was just because I needed a break from having to do anything. The problem came when I had to start school again. I felt like I hadn't had enough of a break and I just needed to finish. In retrospect, I had a pretty bad attitude towards everything to do with school.
The biggest problem with this is that I started to become lazy in my faith. I didn't pray at all for quite a while and I didn't study the bible. I wasn't mad at God or anything like that, just lazy.
I'm really starting to pay the price for this now. I've been studying the bible more in the last couple of weeks, but prayer for me has become terrible. Because I hadn't prayed for so long, I don't really know where to start again now that I see the problem. I've been trying to pray a lot over the last few days, but I just don't seem to know what to do or I keep losing focus.
The past few months, I have noticed a definite change in my behaviour. I'm not as close to my friends and I often feel that I don't care about anyone but myself. I really need to fix this.
I need help, and prayer would be very good too. I'm starting to feel like I don't have much of a relationship with God anymore.
Answer:
Ive been there, im telling you, so i feel for you man. And trust me, the one thing that the enemy wants is for you to feel like your relationship with god is something that you cant get back up on top of again. He wants you to feel like your in a rut thats set so deep that you cant pull out.
What i find helps is to stop and re-asses your life. Just look at it and say, if im not living for and with god, then what the heck AM i doing?
If worst comes to worst, then Make a date of it. Put in some preperation. Go to bed early the previous night, eat properly beforehand, show god that your willing to put in some effort to get him back. Then put on some worship, hit the floor and just dont think. Talk to him, sing along, whatever, just spend some time waiting on him.
Hope im helping
Answer:
You might want to consider finding an accountability partner. Your pastor can help you with this. It's like going to the gym - if you are meeting someone there you are a lot more likely to show up. Having another person who will check in with you regularly can make a big difference. Praying for you.
Answer:
Thanks a lot, I will do that.