Question:
For a long time, I have believed that I am what other people see me as. If people see me as a good basketball player, I must be. If people see me as being physically strong , I must be – if not, I must need to work out more. If others want to hang around me and talk to me, I must be an attractive, likeable, interesting person – if not I must be unattractive, repulsive and boring. If I look like I’m young or acting young I need to grow up and look a little more dignified and cool.
Today I started questioning this belief. I found a verse – “I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you.” Isaiah 46:4 At first, the part that stood out to me was the “I will carry you” part. I was like, “that’s so cool- if he made me, of course he’ll carry me through all the hard stuff”, but it was mostly in my head and I wanted it in my heart and life so I prayed something like, “ Lord, make this real in my life”, and God started talking to me about my self worth. And I realized and finally put into words what I have been believing the past few years, “You are what other humans see you as”. It doesn’t matter if you love me, know me, care about me, or are younger or older than me, in my eyes I am what I am in your eyes. I thought about this for awhile and it’s really hard for me to let go of that. How could my self worth come from God? It comes from people, it always has. They’re the ones that see me, they’re the ones I can see, why does it matter what God thinks about me? Then God showed me another part of the verse and another take on it, “I am He”, He is the one, he’s what matters, “I am he who will sustain you”, he is the one who gives me self worth, who knows me and loves who I am. But it was still like, “Yeah, but why does that matter? He isn’t visible and is just one in a million, just one person’s vote.” And God said, “That’s where you’re wrong.” And he showed me another part of the verse, “ I have made you.” And that’s when it hit me- that’s why his vote counts, he made me! Those other people didn’t make me. And God made them too. What they think doesn’t matter. They were created just like me. It’s not their call to say whether or not I’m cool or if they’re better than me or not. They didn’t make themselves and they didn’t make me. God made me and he made me the way he wanted me. God is awesome. God is God. He is the creator. He is He, He is He who will sustain me. He has made me and He will carry me. Thank you God. -Collin
Answer:
that's a really cool way of thinking about it...