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You know I receive some powerful words when I am in the shower. I think it is because I can quite my mind for a few minutes and actually shut up long enough to hear God speak. I also pray a lot when I am in the shower and few days ago I was in the shower and it just hit me that I really don't have the relationship with God that I want and that I have really been just putting him off to do other things. This hit my heart so hard that I just started repenting and crying for forgiveness for not spending the time with him. I started thinking about when you are in love with some one you just simply can't stop thinking about them or even talking to them or about them to everyone. I remember when I first fell in love with Jesus when he first saved me, I just couldn't get enough. Over the years it he has just became a way of life. I know that is terrible to say but I have grown so use to the "Christian lifestyle" that that is all it has become a lifestyle. I love Jesus and I will proclaim it loud.... but will my thoughts be focused on him, will my time show that I had a real relationship with him, am I willing to drop everything just to talk to him more or to listen to him more. These are questions that flashed through my head as I was praying in the shower and I was sickened to answer no to them. I almost dropped to my knees when the weight of this hit me. I have been so wrapped up in doing things for ministry and to make a living that I lost my relationship with God. Yes I always loved God and I thought that I was truly serving him but I had deserted him. I began to think about human relationships and how it would feel if the person I loved had to much to do to spend time with me or to even talk to me except for a traditional hello. The pain of that kind of desertion has led to so many break ups and divorces in our country today. How would you feel if you were constantly waiting for a phone call and it never came. I can see Jesus sitting by his phone waiting for the ones he loves to call. What happens when we don't call him? I know I need attention and without it I feel that I am not loved, needed or wanted. I begin to feel alone and depressed and then I doubt whether I am loved at all. A lack of spending time with your significant other can cause a lot of damage. I began to imagine God going through the same thing and how he felt. Cause he knows what we are not saying and what we really feel in our hearts about him. I felt so low for putting God through all those things that come from not spending time with him. I felt that I had hurt and saddened God. I repented and repented. I know my heart was not totally focused on him. I know that my time has been spent doing other things. I know that my mind has been occupied with my hurts and my needs and my dreams and goals. I know that the things of God had become an almost routine. God loves us so much and he is always spending time with us his thoughts are always on us and he is never too busy to just give a little hug. When we need God he is always there but when he needs us are we there and willing to follow. When I put God into this human scenario I finally realized what it is to have a relationship with him. After my realization in the shower I began to search for a true relationship with him and to give up everything else to spend time with him even my guitar playing and that is really hard. God hasn't taken everything away from me yet nor has he told me to stop doing the things I do he has just told me to kind of not put as much time into those things and to really focus on him and worshipping him. God has begun to show me how to have faith that he will take care of my needs and he has taken care of me. He has spoke to me a lot in the short time I have been searching for a real and better relationship with him. I am still trying to manage my time and to spend the quality time with God. He desires us to have a real one on one relationship with him. If you want to know how to have a better relationship then think what do you want from someone you love. Look at your earthly relationships and see God in a similar relationship. Once you get on fire for him and let the love that is buried in your spirit take over, your heart will begin to teem with loving Jesus. Don't let the things you do on earth hurt your relationship with the father in heaven, I mean after all we are going to spend more time in heaven.
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Well put, I have been thinking almost in a similar manner lately. I have come to at least a hypothysis that our relationship with the Father overflows into our relationships with other friends, family, etc., and even in the case of a significant other.
Anyway that was very thoughtful.
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Another note, being mad at him really helped the relationship.
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Thank you for your reply. I hope it has blessed you. I just felt like sharing it all with everyone.
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Thank you for sharing, that really makes you think about your prayer life and how you treat your 'relationship' with Christ. Excellent.
God Bless you
-d
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hey me too crazy also when i walk
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That is a beautiful thought... very encouraging and refreshing..
Can I add something.. use your guitar to worship the Lord.. =)