Question:
Hey all,
Some of you may have noticed that I haven't been around much. Well, I've been in a 6-month spiritual valley. I've drifted far from the throne of grace, both through neglect and by sin. Ironically, although I was more involved in "church" things (Bible studies, campus praise rallies, church twice on Sundays, etc.) this year than ever before, I had never felt farther from the Lord than this past year. Looking back I know this is because I completely neglected any semblance of a personal time with God. I can't remember a stretch of more than two days of quiet time. Since as long as I can remember I have always struggled with prayer. It never has come naturally to me. I always felt dumb because though I grew up in church I feel like I should be praying like John Piper, but instead can't even get a sincere thought across. I settle for beauty-pageant "God, be with the missionaries" prayers.
When my old group of friends was reunited earlier this summer after we all had parted ways and done different things this past year, I realized that I was the only one (it seemed) that had drifted. Everyone else somehow held on. I feel like I can't come to them with this. I was a spiritual leader in the youth group in high school - how can I fall away? What will they think of me?
I just feel irreversably damaged. I know facts, theories, philosophies, etc. which severely limit my ability to embrace child-like faith. Deep down I want to but there is layer after layer of tough intellectualism that I can't seem to break and superficially don't really want to.
Please pray that God would break my heart and restore in me that simple faith, that He would conform my mind and use my intellect for His glory. Pray that I may recieve His open arms as the prodigal son did his eager father's.
~Sean
Answer:
I will pray for you Sean. You know where you need to be, now you need to find the strength to go there.
Answer:
Yes, praying for you, Sean. You are in a good place to be able to confess. *smile*
Answer:
I'm praying... I can understand you struggles.
Answer:
Constant prayer
Answer:
praying for a revival.
-In Prayer-