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i'm running out of time, so i'll explain later...
i need prayer. I've been facing hard times since February, but once i thought things were getting a LOT better, they got worse. the person that i love, the thing that kept me going all this time, is out of my life, in some sence. i need to hear the voice of God, i need His Guidance...... i need prayer, the bell rang and i need to get to class....i'll be back!
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I'll pray to God. What he wants to happen in this situation.
Hi by the way. *smile*
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hi *smiles back*
Anyways... it is a long story, and chances are i wont have time to tell it all, the school bell always rings when i wish it wouldn't.... OK>>>>
it all started when i was feeling lonely, and i prayed for a christian friend. God sent me Seth. He became my best friend, then we started dating. We eventually talked about marraige and kids and stuff.... he told me he loved me before i would even dare say it. Then our Uth Pastor made us break up because we are going on a missions trip together, and our pastor didn't think it was appropriate for us to be a couple on the trip. So we put the realationship on hold. Seth promised that we'd be together again and that he'll always love me. I had both faith and hope. Then my mother committed suicide, and Seth, my best friend, wasn't there for me. I got over that... But earlier this week I e-mailed Seth, because i needed to know if he still loved me, i just had doubt in my mind. He e-mailed me back, and he basically said that it is all over, and i should find someone else. He said that he must do as God leads him and we both should move on. I don't understand this. it hurts so much. All i've wanted for my life is to get married and have a family, and now i don't see that in my future at all. For around 7 years i prayed that God will tell me who I'll marry by having my first kiss with that one and only man. Seth kissed me and we had such an intimate relationship. I made a commitment and i will never love another man. i don't have a whole heart to give anyone. I gave such a big part of my heart to Seth, so out of respect for all of the other men in the world, I will not love them because I will never have a whole heart to give them. I know Seth is the only one who suits me, no matter what he tells himself. I just don't understand how Seth feels God is pulling him away from me when at the same time, I feel God pulling me to Seth. i know what God wants. he wants me do dedicate my whole life and my whole being to Him. I just want to understand why this is happening. I had never been loved in my life compared to how Seth seemed to love me. I need to hear God speak..... and the bell rang, so once again, I'll be back later........
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Hello Samantha. I'm sorry that your heart is aching and that you are having trouble seeing God's will in all of this. I will pray for you.
You probably won't be able to make any sense out of any of this for a while. Heartaches require time to heal. You have suffered through some really hard times recently. Give yourself time, and don't expect any lightening bolts from the sky to help you see the way clearly. I see that you are 17 years old. God has a plan for you. Your biggest challenge might be waiting for His plan to unfold.
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Originally Posted by MtlMom Hello Samantha. I'm sorry that your heart is aching and that you are having trouble seeing God's will in all of this. I will pray for you.
You probably won't be able to make any sense out of any of this for a while. Heartaches require time to heal. You have suffered through some really hard times recently. Give yourself time, and don't expect any lightening bolts from the sky to help you see the way clearly. I see that you are 17 years old. God has a plan for you. Your biggest challenge might be waiting for His plan to unfold.
YUP. I know... i just hate waiting... And it is stressful. I have to make all these plans for my life now, and I had always planned on getting married young because when i'm older, i probably won't be able to have kids... so now i don't know where to go... I had planned on being with Seth and try to go to the same school as him, or go to school where his brother goes... but now all my plans seem pointless. I don't know what God wants. Now suddenly i have the urge to do crazy stuff since it seems that Seth and I have no future. I was going to just wait around for him, but now I just have the weird crazy urges. Like I got a call from the National Guard, and I'm seriously thinking about joining. I normally wouldn't, but now i feel like i have nothing to lose. I also got a letter saying that I am a semi finalist for this HUGE scholarship at a really great university, but i wouldn't have ever dreamed of going to school so far away. So much changed in the blink of an eye. If I do join the Gaurd, or take that scholarship (assuming i get picked) then my dream of getting married and having a family will never come true. It just wouldn't be possible. I don't want to just go away, and then Seth changes his mind but i'm not there and i lose my chance. I don't know what i want... I do know what I want.... i don't know what God wants... The choices i make now will have a lasting effect on my future. I don't want to make the wrong choice. I need some guidance, badly. I'm confused... The weird thing is, even though I'm so confused and in so much pain, I feel really close to God and I feel like I'm really really growing in my Faith and getting stronger... but my hopes feel deminished. I feel like I need to be straight out told what to do, none of this running around in circles trying to find out what i should do. I had all my plans figured out, i was happy and on top of the world, but then my happiness balloon deflated.... and i don't know where to go from here. Yesterday was a long day. I had never prayed so much in one day before. I had never read my Bible so much before. I had never cried so much in my life. I feel empty, yet full... I just don't understand. I know God uses all things for His Good, he even uses pain, I just wish i knew His way of thinking. Please continue to pray for me. I've never needed prayer this much in my life. So much is going wrong, but so much is going right. I'm being trained as a missionary, and that is one dream coming true. Pray that I set the right example so that Christ may be glorified. Pray for God's guidance and that I am willing to obey and make the nessesary sacrifices along the way.
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You said you wanted to be told what to do so, go to school do your best forget the guy focus on God and school . If get the scholarship take it if you don’t go to school somewhere that you can afford. Or take out loans and go to school anyway. God has a plan for you, it may or may not include mirage, it may or may not include this guy or children, but His plan is glorious. You seem like a smart kid did I say go to school yet? Get a great education do you’re very best if you want to join the guard do it after finishing school; you’ll be way better off. Ok so you’ve been told what to do so go do it. Get an education, a good one.
Ok so maybe that dosent help now but it is good advice.
Peace
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Samantha, who are the adults that you consider your strongest support? Father, grandparents, pastors?
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Originally Posted by MtlMom Samantha, who are the adults that you consider your strongest support? Father, grandparents, pastors?
My dad, definitly. A couple of my teachers too. Sadly, I feel next to zero support from my youth pastor. He's been attacking my character for some unknown reason. He's been weird to most of us kids lately. Most of the Missions team is struggling with our pastor. It is horrible to admit, but we have a poor attitude towards him.
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Originally Posted by JesusFreakGirl My dad, definitly. A couple of my teachers too. Sadly, I feel next to zero support from my youth pastor. He's been attacking my character for some unknown reason. He's been weird to most of us kids lately. Most of the Missions team is struggling with our pastor. It is horrible to admit, but we have a poor attitude towards him. Sorry to hear about your relationship with your YP. Is the senior pastor aware of this? That's beside the point, of course.
I'm glad that you have people who know you well who can offer you guidance. If you are offered a full-time scholarship you need to consider that this might be the voice of God telling you that it's time to move on. If you don't get the scholarship, that just means that He has a different plan for you. Pray hard and talk to your Dad and teachers.
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My Uth pastor just returned from a convention, and he seems like a new man. He approached me yesterday and for the first time he seemed interested in us students. He noticed my "slight depression" and he wants to guide me through these hard times that i am facing. Please pray that i have good communication with my Uth pastor and that we can work together and figure out what God is calling me to do with my life. Please pray for wisdom for my pastor, for me, and for my close friend (Hailee) who is giving me great support. THANKS!!!!!
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hey girl,
you have a problem similar to one of my old problems.
i wanted to be the author of my own love story!!!
but keep in mind that you can't make someone love you.
there is no way (and nothing i can say) that will help you be able to get over your pain quickly. i know. it's extremely hard to bear the pain of rejection. especially rejection by someone you love! i've been down that road before and it hurts!
so give it to God, girl! go to Him for comfort, and he will welcome you with open arms! he has a perfect plan and a perfect love story just 4 you, so give him the pen and let Him write you a story! and also remember, you are a real princess, the daughter of the KING of the universe! he has high expectations for you and there's only one person who can meet them. maybe you know him now, maybe you don't. if Seth doesn't reach those expectations, he doesn't deserve you! there might be someone better out there. but i'm not saying there's no chance of you and him. maybe there isn't, maybe there is. i'll pray for you.
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I'll pray for you samantha.
-In Prayer-
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thank you LOTS for praying for me everyone! I need it, everyday I need it. Some days are harder than others. I'm debating on whether or not to talk to Seth. I'm kinda scared to, but I don't think he understands how I feel, I don't think he ever realized how serious i am about him. I need God's guidance and I'm seeking HIS will right now as I consider talking to Seth, so continued prayer and support is awesome. Thanks!
~Samantha